三。

做了三年所謂的加拿大銀行基金會計師，白過了。無謂的信譽，父母家人期盼的高薪職業，到頭來是為了什麼。沒意思的。

三年無用的工作經驗，三年多無用的大學文評。為了上大學而上大學。丟下工作後，原來自己什麼都不是，在新國根本競爭不來。所謂的基金會計經驗，不過是份行政的差事，毫無技術，核心思想，決策性判斷的職業。憑什麼和別人掙。根本不是塊跳腳石頭，而是不能回頭的末路。

放下身段，目標清晰，虛心刻苦學習，做一些有挑戰性的工作，可以活用腦的工作，可以繁衍下去的核心技能。不能只活在追薪，追名譽的套圈裡頭。

二十九歲只是個數字。

兩年。

可行吧。

用了三個月多才看清自己。

2019

2018 为别人而活

2019， 为自己，认识自己；把地上自己的碎片，一片一片地捡起来。

辞了工作，积储不多，学coding，finance degree 准备转行去 coding。

还是驴子，不过目标是有了。

a shed of light

Spent a week in home.

Matched with a extrotionary girl on Tinder.

Start to realize or probably what life actually is.

Working harder = happiness. Seems legit.

How could one be so good at everything he/she doing. Well, she really into it.

A girl that is so hard to chase, so perfect academically or physically and any tiny little thing.

This girl making want to try even harder harder harder for you to own her.

If you not good at this then you must be very best at other areas.

Thanks god. I met her. Not that i want to make her mine, but she encourage me to be a even better better me.

uNTITLED

写尼篇记事，我真系有滴心虚。

头先念咗好多，冇办法消化得来。

读甘多年书，就系为咗做一份自己唔中意既工？我真系心虚。:)

有滴人甚至做一份同自己专业冇关系既工作，系咪好傻海，丢，千猜读一份简单的课咪好

咯，都系为咗张纸遮。

揸急车睇到路边滴流浪狗，有滴念起自己，好些没分别，但是做条流浪狗简单好多。

做一条流浪狗，无需要咩野人生目标，得闲尼都行下，果度行下，真系好得闲，千猜揾许偾

就得，够钟够点，要食野，就边徐打等。

但系人唔同狗，以前人好似狗，但系依家既人，系生活系有文化有叠序既社会。

你可以生活到好似狗，但系你会冇尊严，狗无需要尊严，狗都唔穿彡既。

做人系有好多野需要顾虑。。。

人所谓既文化，就追求埋一滴唔得洗既野。

就如买电话要睇牌子，我就比较计多，追求CP值，值唔值得。

一架iphone 7 三千蚊你话值唔值得，1+3 T 两千蚊，呢话值唔值得，一架moto g5 plus 千二蚊

你话值唔值得。g5 抵好多，果滴features都唔kam洗既。

如果做人做工，为咗追求尼滴不知所谓既野，真系好ong goi。

睇翻我自己，读咗课银行与金融课程，欠咗政府六十八千真系好漆ong goi。毕业后，顺利进

到，跨国公司，一年加咗三次人工（shift incentive, yearly increment, meal allowance 同定定的

ot) 拿急接近五千加加减减交税，每月都有四千出。但系我同你讲真系冇兰漆用。

工作压力系真系有，每日唔知果市点样，几十个dateline，真系好兰漆傻害。

转工？话都冇甘容易，风险太大，揾唔翻甘多，出边几万个我尼滴甘个人，讲真，要我出去

同人斗，我真系冇咩料可以拿出来同人斗（定我对自己唔够信心？:)）。。。

钱系人生基本野，但系为咗钱牺牲甘多真系唔值得。。。

其实我平平淡淡，够洗够用都够了，系马来西亚够洗够用真系冇甘容易！

usd/myr 半年3.4/3.8去到4.4.。真系好白痴。。sgd/myr 2.5去到3.16

钱唔重要，但家有两老等着养，车要供，读书钱要还，真系身不由己。大哥要结婚， 屋企要

装修，真系唔野少。。。

真系好兰后悔读甘多年书，搞到自己今时今日。以前无知，以为读书系成功既唯一出路。

真系彡ong。如果我早几十年睇到我今时今日既我就。。。

所以我依家每日重复犯错，日日做急自己唔中意咗既野。

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MqkiaeEkDZE

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HOOOOO

乘着2016结束前，把两千五块放进了我的CDS Account，户口开了几年，工作有了些花红，要下海了（股海）！

2016奔波的一年，工作生活上有很大的改变，现在应该稳定点了（虚心）。

下手买自我增值的书本，下手VBA，下手投资之类的研究。

2016算是生活上开了个头，NEXT STAGE GONNA BE GROWTH STEADYLY。

HOOO!!

Impossible is nothing, just do it！

Impossible is nothing, just do it.

Adidas and Nike pretty much nailed it up all the motivation you needed in achieving stuffs.

Nothing is impossible, if you dare to at least workout something even its little, things would still be possible to be working out, not if you would not to try. If you age 20s to 30s you should be trying everything out of the world while you still have passion for things. Don`t let it until too late where you are losing all the energy, time and money.

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Even its the same place, people tends to view things from different perspective from their view. Its all about how your mental in it and viewing it in a rather good way than a pessimistic one. For all my life other than death cant be control, all things rest all fixable and giving up is not part of it. If we control our inner mentality and mood, all things will end up in different way. View challenges and obstacle in life as a temporary pain in life, handle it well, control it while seeking ways to change the ways of how life continuing. If you don`t want to be live like this, than work your shit up for changes!

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Impossible is nothing, just do it!

Which Path to go with.

Ouch, its October end.

Its been a tremendous year so far.

Got a job, not so happy for it as it is extremely stressful even its considered as high pay.

But in other sense, its not worth much it.

Bought a car to make travel back and forth to work easier, yet shit get stuck in another loan commitment. Worth or not, its relatively either side.

Really dislike the workload of the job yet being tied by car loan. Fuck!

Solution?

Start apply for another one even its less compensated. But more towards work life balance.

In details, try to save more on contingency support money to help me through those months.

Try to work for at least a year.

On the other side, when am i going to start my investment plan? Duh..its been rather late now.

In retrospect, try to fulfill on self-improvement, find something is really interested on and able to fed me. The correct path is much important than choosing the wrong path even you excel on it.