Friday, December 6, 2013

生日一则

对所有人都好,注定自己不好受。

要嘛就这样被瞧不起,要嘛提起心肝,奋力一搏。

原本都不想写了,不过作为记忆的一部分就写吧:

今年的生日很平淡,脸书隐藏了生日提示,二个女生向我说生日快乐。

慧英和慧连,两个喜欢我的女生,其他的就是jobstreet,forum,netlog,friendster,carigold,etc.

真够悲哀,哈哈哈。那天晚上还考试,还好hock后来jio喝茶,然后去大杯水。

ahdu和daphne都有来,虽然他们都不懂,不过某种意义上还不算太孤单吧,哈哈哈。

因为自己也不是谁,放出来貌似有种驱使别人为我庆祝那样,我不喜欢欠人。

就这样吧。没什么特别的。

Friday, November 8, 2013

Hello November :D

October skipped.

Having much better emotional control, means less blogging. This is what i am now.
Not much to said. Week3 gonna end soon, time to pack up and tidy up all the stuffs.

Target: 4.0

Saturday, September 14, 2013

Dark Secret

It such a sin for knowing too much people`s secret.

They said the word "stalker"..

which i would not dare to admit it :)

Im felt so bad after knowing this much...

Wednesday, August 7, 2013

朋友

活到了今天,总算了解到“朋友”这两个字的份量了。

有些纯粹利与益的关系,
充斥着许多谎言。
有些是拿来过日子的。
如果你不了解你朋友内心是想什么的,
那根本不是朋友。

以前总听朋友说:“发达了不要忘记我” 之内的话,
现在我总算体会到了

如果朋友之间真的像玻璃般脆弱,那么要破就破吧。

Targets

如果有人问我有什么目标吗?
以前我可能答不到给你,
也许之前已完成文凭课程。

这几天脑袋不时地思虑,
今晚目标已确定!

1. Degree 1st Class graduate
2. CFP cert.
3. FRM cert.

Sunday, July 28, 2013

You just made my day :)

July is ending soon.

Summary for July, all things not really go smoothly. Thought of study but yet failed to do so, have been sleeping alot. I think this might be the worst midterm i ever been done so far yet managed to point up to average. All the classes and assignment had making be exhausted and i skip many classes for the last two weeks. I should be more discipline, getting a schedule for my life, it has been a mess. I dont wish to make another one. What i want to achieve for the rest of months is getting less usage on facebook, since there is no point following people you would not know in real life or really closed by, it just another trash of the 21th century creation. Secondly, less Clash of Clan gaming time or more organized playing time which is the most time consuming after the social network. Start with my assignment and whole bunch of revision. Be discipline! If you wish the history will be repeated again all this long.

Another much sentimental expression regarding people, " I will not going to ask you, because i dont want to hear another lie". Yet, my friends still lying in front of me, as i know what going in behind. What really happened is me and a friend ask him for drink, he said fine. Later, he sms wouldnt able to join and not answer any calls. Please you want to cheat me go farer, i saw him playing basketball when i in my way back to home right after exam. I saw him i dont want to greet him, i just walk by, my thought at that moment is i wouldnt going to stop that but awaiting how he going to tell me later on. So, he couldnot saw me at that time. Being several days, didnt shows up to talk to me but today Saturday shows up said yumcha. Fine, i always steady, i tell myself to move on, just leave it. He will only call me when he want someone to accompany and yes this time his girlfriend went for exam. I am not going to ask him about that day, sad case he explain that he had went back hometown ady that day. He message me that day, said sorry he couldnt came. And today he said he back hometown. Yet and yet you still want to lie at me since i would not going to ask you. You have been such a bad liar! Huh. I have keeping many secret of others and they hardly realize that. Somtimes, you just need to keep it on your own, and i forced my mouth to keep it keep it from pouring out. What the point? It is really feeling good, when you knew so much of someone compared to others and you can see how that people react to that sistuation such like one girls try to keep low profile while i knew her family are doing on gold jewelry business from the begining. Now, while chating with friends that i get to know that she had speak out some of her background that her family`s business. But, it joyful that i want to said out that her family not owning one gold jewelry shop but TWO!. haha. Again it just made my day, watching how people react. HAHA

I think this enough for today.

2.20am July 28

Monday, July 1, 2013

Im such a cheapstake..shit..

Friday, June 7, 2013

淡定

淡定有钱剩,泥句话几时都某错。

淡定的我,就如一堵屎般,让人继而远之。

Sunday, June 2, 2013

青春•准备

虽然我不要去想,可还是不由自主地去想,两年多啊!我的岁月,我的青春啊!

只能好好利用这两年,更加地充实自己!

Thursday, May 30, 2013

心情更新,

文凭课程终于告一段落了,犹记得当初浪费了两年,做工了一年,真不敢相信自己还能拿起支笔,当时心情很轻松,现在有的只是无奈,无奈的是同个地方,两年的时间.

释放过后,就要继续努力了.TMD,干他的功课,干他的考试,干他的讲师,干他的上课!!!!干!!我跟你干了!!!

Friday, May 24, 2013

My life is mess..my room, my laptop, my clothes, my relationship, my finance, and my study is still wrapped with uncertainty..

:D

Thursday, May 16, 2013

我的决定是对的,我还是适合一个人。

Wednesday, May 15, 2013

words beneath the heart

原来心里的话无需说出口,纵使我早已晓得这道理。

Tuesday, May 7, 2013

My mind need some rest.

My mind need some rest.

After all these long, works, study, election, relationship, vacation, report...

I do need some rest.

My mind keep thinking all the time.


I closed my facebook to get away from all that nonsense.

Hopefully music, i can get eternally peaceful underneath of my mind.

 

Wednesday, May 1, 2013

Quick update frm phone

Its been months that i no update my blog.
Soon my intern gonna be over, its appreciate that all my colleagues are treating me nice that for some moment i felt i am not derserve it. I afraid people being nice on me, i could not pay back them, not for now especially miss T, who treat me like his little brother, and also F which some what been called as my aiya mother, although my rule is not calling others as mom except my biological one. She even wants to recommend her daughter for me some how which i felt i could not derserve it. She deserve a better man, i met her one time during working lunch. Althought soft short hair soft like a tb but she is tall and white which can be consider a pretty girl if she hair is long. She had a aura which i could resist it and making me felt myself weakier than her. Maybe some day when i am financial strong having own car and house. Yet it still long to wait.

This few months i been driving alone at least once a week. Overall i had improve alot by gaining experiance by own. From driving around kampong, driving to work, taking friend from railway station, go to bercham, , MH hotel taking the hill break until now driving to jusco on a damn jam traffic serching for parking slot.

Just a short brief for today went to popular to use my vouchers. Jusco is full of people that i could not find a parking slot. One slot i do not have the skill to park in because it is too narrow for beginner like me who drive a long car. Second its im while i am too slow at return gear the car speed and cut into parking slot which should be belong to me. Haiz, i am still got lot more to improve.

In short the popular bookstore is crowded by people making me no mood to select my books and the books is pricey and no much option to be choose from. I spend a half day on this. But one last thing the cashier, Cyl is look more beautiful than picture which i later found on fb with my skills by sneaking on her id card. Lolx.

That is quick update, and about the politic i am sick of speaking it. Politician are hard to be know from normal citizen view like me. But the politician which i admire the most is Hew. Reason imm lazy to say. mlm

Monday, April 8, 2013

quick update

It`s been more than 1 month i didn`t update my blog.

I`m been busy for sleeping and managing some personal stuff.

Let keep it simple overall i 2 to 3 things i wish to point out.

First, regarding my internship at Bromma.
Nothing much to say of. Overall nothing so speacial i learnt from the company. Just some minor knowledge regarding Hr, finance and software. As an intern we are just some tool using to relief the officer workload which is really cheap to hire. Majority is some paperwork which can be done by any SPM students. I think my postion on the company been under-rated. No choice but to wait the time off at 6 and wait for the nxt friday to come. Hopefully time get passed fast.

Secondly, for my langkawi trip planning and hotel booking.

..shit..dont feel like want to continue writing...


Saturday, February 16, 2013

极限!

昨天是人生第一次那么想放弃。

当天和朋友去了escape theme park 玩,开始其他游戏很普通,蛮简单的,只有一部分是成人玩,不是就要另外给钱,觉得当天就这样算了,马马虎虎地玩过。

谁知,那个monkey business才是真真的卖点,那里有分三个level,level1 初级,level2 中等,level3是高难度的。排队排了整一个小时,终于轮到我了。好死不死lv1和lv2满人,不要等就去了lv3,还不知好歹地问了工作人员那个最难玩,不自量力选了lv3,4条路中最困难的一条。

过第一关是踏一块块吊着的很小的树桶,一开始已经非常吃力。
第二关是过一条条的长型的树干,中间有被两棵树枝挡着,第一棵树枝已有难度,第二课更一度难倒我,还是度过了。

最恐怖的第三关,像W型一样的绳子,要走过去,妈的手酸得我要哭,几度在半空中休息喘气,几经辛苦终于度过了,整双手好像废了,我开始觉得真的要放弃了,很累!很酸!

过后还有其他关,我也大概略过,因为我已忘了其中一些,第四还是第五,妈啊,我不要玩了,玩flying fox双手太累,飞去时没抓住网,结果那个我尽然飘回去中间!!!!干!!要rescue也没人救得了我,我要放弃了,半空中不想玩了,想人来搭救我,然后结束游戏。干!悬挂了许久都没人来帮我,我就听到朋友弟弟的朋友要我捉着绳子慢慢拉自己过去,干!!!!!!!我要死了!!拉着拉着不可以松手,不然就再飘回去!!我很想死啊,最后还是一手一手的挨过去了,天啊,你杀了我吧!

这几站我一直在转换台上休息,因为锁头被栓住了,根本没有后路!!是没有后路!只能一直玩一直玩到完!!干!!!!我已死了...过后爬了两个普通的绳索又要一个flying fox回去,干!!我还有阴影啊!!四个人在转换台等我了,要死也要飞出去了才死。这次我抓住了,干!!!还有4关啊!!!我要怎样活下去啊!!手酸得不是样了...

接下来的三个,我要紧牙关,去干了,累死算了..当时我脚开始也酸了,惨!!!还是一步一抓地过去了。当时也要下雨了,前面的机关我根本不想再玩下去了!!还是过了有点感动下...为什么我要难么不自量力啊!最后一关冒着雨我只能玩到第二根,这难倒也很高的,殿堂级别的,那人叫我划过去他接我,他扶了我起来。

最后,某种程度上,我也算成功了。这游戏有进无退,体力消耗相当大!!!很大!极限大!!我几度极限了!!最后也算是有少许的满足感..妈的!你大哥,我以后都不回来了!!!轻轻松松到处走下就算了以后!!!



















p/s: 过后发生了一些小插曲,以后会更新。

Sunday, February 10, 2013


10th Feb: 第三章第一部正式下榻,第三章第二部即将上榻。

小事2则

(一)新年,没新年的心情,maxis line平时都没怎样send message,今天一直send不出..干~
(二)有时想来想去,用复杂的方法去解决问题,原来答案就在眼前.How silly of me..

Tuesday, February 5, 2013

有时我们笑,不一定是为了什么高兴的事,
而是面对世间上种种磨合,逆境,无奈,无仲,到看开,
所表现出来的那种阔达,打从心里笑了出来。
不懂得(世俗),可能会对我们这种行为诠释为取笑,藐视,不认真。

人们说开心又一天,不开心又一天,怎么不开开心心度过每一天呢?
一样的,遇到困难时,哭,懊恼,惆怅着,问题可以解决,可是笑着来解决不是更好吗?
好好地享受那过程。

有时,我遇到什么困难也好,都会笑了出来,考试来不及读也笑,迷路兜圈也笑,给别人误会了也笑(其实是不是有病?呵呵)
 也许是我过度乐观,也成为了我的致命伤。







一个不会po出去的status。
[宛如我status所要表达的]

Wednesday, January 30, 2013

Level 4

很多东西需要加强,
把我自己的skills发挥到另一个阶段,
虽然现在的我已足够应付现阶段的功课,
纯粹是对个人的要求。

LV4 upgrading in process..

Monday, January 28, 2013

小学,朋友。

我想找回小学的所有朋友,把所有朋友聚在一起。

人生可怕的tradeoff,你得到一样东西,悄悄地你也酱失去某些东西。

到你知晓时,也能够感叹和惋惜。

#钢之炼金术士教会我什么是等价交换。

Monday, January 21, 2013

Internship

回到家几天interview工作,
前两天忙完了,
接下来的两天不懂在忙什么,
回到去还有个flash等我,
一直想写,都没能写到.

这次大概讲下我interview过程,

思维有点凌乱了..

大概是整个interview过程,我可以看得出两位Interviewer对我好像很有兴趣,
还是她们想hamsap我?呵呵
我不懂其他十位的表现还是成绩如何,不过大概没我好,
我的成绩实在太好了,他们无法挑剔了,嘻嘻
果然没意外,她们捉着我的law来问..
我不懂我是好运还是倒霉,上班时间8点-6点,多么希望我听错,
25块一天,一个月大概能有500块吧.
让我幸运的是他们说他们finance部门也需要人,可以的话希望我能跑两边
我当然求之不得,我要的是学习的经验,这也是我比较安慰的地方.
临走前,还和我说hope to see you again 嘻嘻
那时我大概有7成的把握,没想到,才5点多就打给我说我被录取了.
哥,果然很强大!嘻嘻
喜忧参半.公司距离20分钟摩托,车不是很会驾..希望我早日熟悉吧..

希望3个月里让我获益非常多吧,
如果像以前那样,上班等下班,不然就闲,睡觉,我很快死了...

对了,突然想到,我的实习应该是, 第三章的番外篇!哈哈

Wednesday, January 16, 2013

assignment

每到这时刻,我都很想死——

没错就是assignment dateline的前一晚。

又是one man show time。

可能我对自己的要求高。

Sunday, January 6, 2013

从圣诞节到2013!

一直要写,可是有时很忙,不忙时却不方便.
所以从略.

25日,搭车回马六甲,送了一位小妹妹去搭lrt.读counseling 2nd sem的.
害羞害羞可爱下,穿Hello kitty的croc鞋,名字,号码没问.
有缘自然会再度相见,帮人家指路还要号码?哈哈
途中,一个马来老婆婆走路不方便,我帮她提Bag,她就扶着她上楼梯.
还说我好人,我就对他说我扮的.哈哈
他给我的感觉有点想杨宝贝那型的.

中间的日子忙assignment

然后,31日movida倒数,被砍多30,因为一个男的不喝酒,两个女生没喝
干!不喝酒,不用入场费啊!那些死人男生lan大方..
没办发,知道改变不了什么,就若无其事地给了

然后,前天拜四presentation ob.
临时临尾在1.46分赶完了,虽然有些效果都没加,就去学校了.
播放时,同学都笑,当中是背后音乐的我选得太好了,放在太适合的地方了
最后出starring字幕时,同学们给与的掌声是我最大的欣慰和感动!
这是认可的掌声!
然后印度同学问我那里找的那些音乐,我说Youtube打famous movie soundtrack就有了
不过我还是很幸运选的歌简直是为我的video而设的.
然后外国同学问这个video是谁edit的,我也不好意思的承认了一下.哈哈
最后老师说前面2组的good,后面三组的要从做,
免不了被我们那个video比较下去了,看到一半都被喊停了
这几天我重看了好几次,没有喧哗的包装,只有淳朴的诚意!
是感激,是欣慰, 是感动的!好过以前那个不可以说明是我作品的可乐.
全盘负责,镜头我来捉!

感发:我觉得如果我电脑spec好的话我就可以用到adobe premiere开sonyvegas也顺.然而movielivemaker虽然限制很多,可是我以将他发挥最大作用!所以我得到的感触是,不要被身边的不利因素而限制,要突破这些限制!敢敢去做!所以我寄了resume去cimb和pb,虽然知道diploma被选中的机会很渺茫,也大胆地按下send!